Fluency

...is something I don't possess.

I find myself always wanting to take back things that I have just said. It is either I thought of something better to make the point across, or things didn't turn out the way I foresaw them. During these times, I feel somewhat shallow, being unable to fully and clearly express what I want to say. What happens is that I usually say the first thing that comes into my mind. Hasty, if I can say so myself.

I just find it worrying at times. I no longer fit the description a student sheltered by the familiarities of school. Whether I like it or not, I am now a professional, striving to find my space in the real world. I need to teach myself to slow things down in order for myself to actually catch up.